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Sabbath Rest

The day started with a jolt when the clock radio started playing music. It was a pleasant performance of a previously unheard of folk artist. It was still a jolt because it was way too early to be waking up on a Sunday. Oh, that’s right. The Husband must report to work this day. Difficulties require his expertise and assistance and he must do his duty. I roll over and hope to return to sleep but that was not to happen either. The son and the dog come bounding into the room after being awakened by the early morning movements. Oh well. There is no hope in returning to sleep at this point and I sleepily feel my way to the kitchen to pour my first cup of coffee. I get ready for the day and still nothing feels right. I have a headache and I feel overly tired. What is wrong with me? This is not how to start a Sunday or any day for that matter.

Sigh. Moving on.

The son and I go to visit the In-Laws for breakfast. It is delicious as always and the company is good. But, not having the Husband right there with me makes it hard to enjoy. Our Sunday morning family rituals are not being fulfilled and that leaves me out of sorts. The headache continues to burn in my head and my eyes grow heavy by the hour. I enjoy our family visit the best I can but I long to go home and enjoy a restful Sunday.

We come home and my out of sorts mood comes to a head when I lose my patience with the Son. He was just trying to play but I didn’t want to be touched. I prayed for patience and an open heart. Soon after Husband calls to say that he is coming home. Thank you Lord for it was only a half day.

The Husband cane home and made himself a simple lunch. My homemaking fell by the wayside and I didn’t even try to have a lunch ready for my hardworking man. Could this day even be redeemed? Husband knew I don’t feel well in body and spirit and he offered to watch our Son while I go outside and enjoy our hammock.

The hammock is merely a camping hammock that was given to us years ago. We’ve haven’t used it much until now because we couldn’t figure out a way to rig it to two trees without it falling. Husband fixed that with a steel cable. It won’t fall for anything now. It is easily put up and just as easily taken down. The hammock has become my haven and my safe place. It’s made with a parachute type material that can come completely around you and form a cocoon of sorts. It is comfortable for swinging and sleeping, on your side or your back (I have yet to try the stomach).

I grabbed my blanket, used as a pillow, and I proceeded outside knowing the Husband is in charge now. I climbed into the hammock and I sighed. I prayed for comfort and calm. I wrapped the hammock around me and I could feel the Lord’s arms around me. I gave a sigh of relief and I fell asleep. I don’t know how long I slept but I do know it was beautiful, restorative sleep. It was the sleep that only the Lord could give to a weary soul. I truly felt like I was sleeping in His arms. There was no sickness, no frustration, no weariness. Just a simple girl and her God. As I awoke I could feel the sun coming the confines of the hammock and I could hear the birds chirping. I even heard an unnamed creature scamper underneath me.

Oh yes. It is time now to return to my wonderful life. I was restored and rejuvenated. There was true Sabbath rest this day.


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Vulnerable

I can’t believe I am doing this. I just can’t shake it and the Husband won’t let me. The Lord won’t let me. The Holy Spirit won’t let me. Apparently, I am a writer and there is nothing I can do about it.

But, seriously? Me? A writer? I have no formal training beyond writing papers for degrees in History and Counseling. What do I have to say? What can I offer this gigantic world? I am not an expert in anything? I am a wife, a homemaker, a home schooler, a part-time jobber. I am overweight and out of shape. I’m not all that pretty. I am a jogger but I am firmly in the back of the pack. I am not an extravagant chef. I am not crafty and the crafts I do make are kind of gimpy looking. I have never made a big difference. I am one of those random faces in the crowd that doesn’t really stick out. I am average and maybe even less than that.

Me? A Writer? Seriously, Lord? This is just crazy! Why won’t you leave me ALONE?! I have tried so many things and nothing has ever worked. And whenever I cry out for wisdom and direction I am always come back to writing. There is something inside me that wants to write even though I have no idea what it would be. Nothing has ever worked! What would make me think this thing called writing would work? What can I say? Would anyone even listen? What is the point if no one listens? So many thoughts. I have tried writing before and that fell by the wayside too. How is this time different? Clueless.

The Lord prompts me and I turn away. I am scared and embarrassed. Who am I to think that I could be used to do something awesome? Me? A writer? There is NO WAY! The Holy Spirit digs into my soul and asks me to write. I run away. I don’t want to go that deep, Lord. It is too dark and shameful. Please leave that part alone because I am so not worthy of your presence. Please allow me to keep my shamefulness and mediocrity to myself, a sinful woman. I have given you my soul, my love, and my trust. Please don’t ask me to give every last detail of my shame and then write it down. This is too hard. I am not worthy. I have done so many terrible things. People won’t love me. They won’t like me if they knew.

Me? A Writer? I just can’t believe it, Lord. You say that you are drawing me to yourself through pen and paper. You chase me down. You are relentless. “Open yourself to me and great things will happen,” you say. “Just allow me to clean you from the inside out,” you say. “You know my Son and you know my salvation but there are galaxies more to know of my Love and plan for you, my Child. Just let go”

I am afraid. I am afraid of what will be revealed, uncovered. I am sinful and I am ugly. Please, Lord, use someone else. Use someone who is more faithful and more talented. I am just a homemaker, a home-schooler. I have never done anything great. I am just me. And yet you never let me go. How many times have I heard, “Oh NO! I am not letting you get off that easy!”

Me? A Writer? Seriously, Lord? I guess so. Apparently, you aren’t letting me get out of this one. It is with fear and trembling that I submit. I have no idea where this will lead. I am still quite afraid of what will be shown to me. It is ugly and it is dark. Of that I am sure. But, if the Lord can use me, a sinner, to bring himself glory then I guess it is all worth it.

So, with that I become a writer.


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When Caleb was a baby I developed and religiously followed a daily schedule of feedings, playtime, and naps.  I planned my errands and other outings around that schedule.  It worked and I loved it.  Caleb was a very happy and predictable baby.

Once I started working at the YMCA everything changed.  I became looser and looser with our schedule because I knew there were big chunks of time eaten up by my part-time job.  The only thing that stayed in place was when Caleb was supposed to take a nap.  There was no consistency in when we ate, went on errands, or did “School.” I also allowed computer time to get longer and longer.  Caleb was so content to play his games and I would get so much done around the house.  Great, right? Wrong! Caleb’s behavior was going down hill and I knew that I was the one to blame.  The sweet boy needs structure and consistency from day to day.

So, I have devised a schedule that we put into place and started yesterday.  So far I am loving the new schedule and how the day flows.

Here it is:

5:30 Am: Wake up with Hubby/Send him off to work/Get ready for workout

6:15 am: Exercise (20-45 minutes, depending on the workout I am doing)/Caleb usually wakes up sometime around now

7:00 am: Shower/Dress/Caleb plays

8:00 am: Breakfast with Caleb at kitchen table (a new habit I’m working on)

8:30-10:00 am: Kitchen Time/ Work on a Cleaning Zone/ Free Play for Caleb

10:00 am : Homeschool

11:30 am: Lunch at Kitchen Table

12:00-1:00 pm: Caleb can choose to play on computer or watch PBS on TV/ I work on blog and family finances

1:00-3:00 pm: Quiet-time for Caleb in his room/I rest, do devotional, and read

3:00-4:00 pm: Get ready for work at YMCA or outside playtime (on days I don’t work)

(On days I work, I leave the house at 4 pm and usually don’t get home till 8:00 pm.  Caleb goes straight to bed and I have TV date with Hubby.  And then bedtime)

4-4:30 pm: Read Aloud Time

5:00 pm: Dinner Prep and Cook/ Caleb can watch Arthur on PBS or play on computer

6:00-7:30 pm: Family time consisting of dinner, family devotional, and play

7:30 pm: Caleb goes to bed/Hubby and I do whatever we want to do

8:30-9:30 pm: TV time with Hubby (one episode of our current TV series from Netflix)

9:30 pm: Go to bed
I know full well that this is just an outline for the day.  Life will happen.  But, I love having a general flow to the day.  The schedule keeps me accountable when it comes to keeping Caleb’s TV/Computer time to a minimum. Finally, I hope to be used to keeping a schedule when the time comes for me to make it tighter to allow for more Homeschool.

What do y’all think?

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Relaxing Scene of an Apple and Eyeglasses on Open Book by Fireplace at Home

Praying you are having a Restful Sunday.



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Children Finding Gifts on the Family Christmas Tree, 1870s

I pray everyone is having a beautiful and blessed time with friends and family this sacred season.  I know I sure am.

Continue to be blessed as we look to the turning of a New Year full of learning and growing. I will be back on Monday.



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Just in case you are looking for some good comfort food in the midst of all the holiday feasting or you need to warm up after some fun times outside. Here is a new family favorite. It is so tasty, versatile, and cheap. Let’s give it a try, shall we?


Pot O’ Beans

Start with about five cups of cleaned and sorted dried pinto beans. Set them out to soak the night before you plan to cook them up.  The beans are going to swell so make sure there is at least two to three inches of water above the beans.



Just Good ‘Ole Beans

The next morning, rinse and drain the soaked beans and dump them into a large slow cooker. Add about five slices of bacon or a ham bone and one roughly chopped onion.

The next step is to add all your spices.  This step is very dependent on how spicy you like your beans.  We like them pretty spicy, so I added about two teaspoons each of garlic powder, chili powder, and ground red pepper.  Time will tell what you like the best and how to adjust the spices.



All the Goodness

Fill the pot up with water, making sure there is a couple of inches on top again. Cover with the slow cooker lid and allow to cook all day long. The house will smell so good!!

When you have about thirty minutes to an hour left of cooking, add the salt and pepper.  Just add the salt and pepper until you like the flavor.  Cover again and allow to cook until dinner time.


Cooking All Day

Serve up your beans in a nice soup bowl with a side of cornbread and maybe even a dollop of sour cream.


Comfort

This recipe makes so much.  It is wonderful for eating a bowl of beans and for saving for other recipes.  You could grind the beans up in a food processor to make refried beans for burritos or add the beans to homemade chili.  The possibilities are endless.

ENJOY!!



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I just wanted to poke my head in for a moment and say THANK YOU to all my readers.  The Lord surely blesses me with all of you.

During this busy season I am finding it so easy to not think about my blog and writing at all.  When I don’t think about my writing, I don’t make myself disciplined enough to really get stuff done and to do it well.  When that happens I lose my motivation and confidence.  And down and down the spiral goes. Thank the Lord I have not stopped posting all together.

Every so often I receive a sweet comment from one of you or I hear a personal friend mention a post s/he recently read.  Such confirmations are just enough to light my fire again.  It is God’s way of saying, “This is where I want you right now, Sarah.”  With that fire comes a mind flooded with ideas and typing fingers.

Thank you so much for your comments and love.  You speak LOVE and TRUTH into my life.

I am very excited about Glory In The Clutter in 2010.

Have a very Merry CHRISTmas!

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